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I'm blogging at F's hse now!!
Haha.
With my beloved 19th Odac :)))
LOVES.

UPDATED/

19th :)))

Jenn.

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"We've got smth to talk to you"

My parents took leave ytd since it was chu san.

While i was doing my revision in the room...
Parents : Can you come out? We want to talk to you.
Me: What thing? Can you all hold on for a moment?
Mum: Just come out now.
Me: Okayy.

Out in the living room...
Things were brought across to me.
I was stunned by their suggestion.
Never did it come across my mind that they'll suggest something like that.
Me: Huh... But i've promised them tt i'll go with them this year.
Mum: It's not worth paying the sum of money where you're going for 3 wks only. We would rather, you go for two years.
Parents: You can choose anywhere you want. But provided that you do well enough for this year. You will do the research.
Me: HUH...
Parents: If you do not want, we can save up the money and buy....
Me: Even if i can, i do not want to go alone.
Mum: You have to learn to be independent. You can't always rely on others.
Me: (reluctantly) I'll think about it...

Haiz.
Mum asked me during dinner time again.
And i told her i want to try for the Summer School first, experience overseas life, before making a decision.
But she doesn't seems to be keen with that suggestion.

I know my results won't be up to their expectation.
So i do not want to take the risk.
And i so do not want to go alone.
I'm not tt independent yet.
Not yet.
I'm still under 21.

These are the things that happen when my results aren't fantastic at all...
WHATEVER.

HAPPY 'MOO MOO' TO U!

Happy Chinese New Year!

Shall sum up my CNY eve and CNY all in these few pictures.

Chinese New Year Eve.
Our yearly routine of steamboat.
3-4 rounds.
And i only love to eat home-cooked steamboat.
Then after dinner, we went to the multi-storey carpark nearby.
Played.
Chatted.
Took photos.

Chinese New Year Day1

Chinese New Year Day 2

Youth (sisters) Fellowship

In the morning after my lesson, had lunch wif D and A, then we acc A to get his jeans at bishan as fast as possible.
Then i rushed back home to get changed for the Youth Fellowship (YF), which was held at Lower Seletar Reservior.
By the time i reached there, it was alr 3.30pm, and i knew that i've missed a huge part of the programme.
I was afraid that won't be able to get much as i was rather late.
But luckily, or rather thankfully, the schedule was pushed back due to some reasons.
Thus i only missed the first part of it, instead of the bulk of it.

Anyway, this isn't the most important.
Most importantly, i've gained alot today.
:))
I am glad that i've decided to go.
I am glad that i had the opportunity to share with my fellow sisters, knowing that i've not been to YF for a lonnggg time.
I am glad that we caught up with one another, understanding one another better.
I am glad that we had the time to pray tgt and to encourage one another.
Yup, and i know that i'm not alone.
:)
(I hope that the brothers had a good time at P's hse as well!)
I feel tt YF is a time where we can get to know one another better, and to get more bonded together.
Because norm on Sun, i'll go straight back to my grandpa's place directly after church, and i dun have much time to mingle around except with those in my Sunday School Class.
Yup.
So i have to really make extra effort to go for YF!
And i want to stick to my resolutions!!
:D

Tml's CNY eve alr, but i've yet to feel the mood kicking in yet.
I just feel that it's like a normal holiday.
But this 'normal' holiday is a more tiring one, whereby i have to go ard to my relatives hse from morning till night to do CNY visiting.
And by the time i've reach home, i'll feel super exhausted.
Then i'll leave all the red packets aside, chuck them aside in a corner for the next few days before opening them.
A routine.
A yearly routine.

I'm off to prepare for CNY,
have a nice weekend,
and
wishing all a

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (in advance)

Honey Cornflakes

It was a baking day at LOVELY's hse.
Haha.
Thanks for picking me up and sending me back home though i just live 10 mins away from your hse!

Tada! The honey cornflakes.The unsuccessful puff that became a muffin.
Haha.
We'll try again the next time okie? :)LOVES :))

BFFFFFF!!

Twilight Mystery

I'm lacking of slp after rushing to finish off my mintues till 3am plus last night.

But i had a sense of satisfaction after Mr P, and Ms VP said it was good.

Haha.

I'll continue to do my best yo.

:)

ANW,

I'm addicted to Twilight!!!

I've bought it ytd, and i've been reading it the whole day today, and i can't seems to put it aside.

Not even for a minute.

Haha.

I'm left with a few more chapters to go!

Yay!

Now after reading the story book, i know why so many girls are going head-over-heels over Edward Cullen.

Because he's being portrayed as the perfect, ideal kind of guy that girls longed to have.

Haha.

But just bear in mind that this is just a fairytale kind of story okie!

Anw,

Bestie's birthday is coming soon...

I know you read.

So this is just to entice you, to what i've made for you!

Haha :))

Yup, off to finish the remaining chapters :))

BYE!

Mum.Daughter Shopping Day!

Yup my mum took leave today, and so the both of us went to town early in the morning at ten.

First stop was at the hair salon, and we both trimmed our hair for the upcoming CNY.

Next up was shopping.

Lunch-ed.

Shopping.

We got quite a fair bit of stuffs today :))

The stuffs tt i got for myself:

A pair of shoes.

A pair of shorts.

Top. (Got brother a similar one as well :D)

Handbag.

Some of Clinique's makeup stuffs.

Twilight.

New Moon

(I finally got my twilight book! Haha. Anyonee who wants to borrow just let me know, i'll lend it to u after i've finish reading.)

Anw we returned home with both our hands full!

Haha.

Some stuffs we've got today :D

Reached home at around 4pm, before heading to school for the first official meeting of 2009.

Yup i got the position of a Secretary.

:)

So now, I'm off to do my minutes.

I intend to complete it before i slp.

Yup, that's all for today, gd night!

My Brother

While i was running through the family pictures in my laptop, i came across some of the pictures i've taken with my brother.
And through the years, we have grown.
I've realise that as he grow older, the more he tends to avoid taking pictures tgt with me.
This seems to hold true not only with my brother, but with some of my younger cousins as well.
Hmm...
I wonder why when most of the guys grow older, they'll tend to turn down the offer when asked to take a picture tgt with them.

Anw, though at times we do have lil arguements (which rarely occurs), we still accompany one another to go jogging at night, taking some time to chat admist our busy schedules, keeping secrets for each other, consulting and commenting on each other's dressing before going out, etc.
Sometimes when there's only the both of us at home, and we're too lazy to go out for lunch, he'll prepare and cook lunch for me!
Haha, how nice can tt be.
:D

Some of my favourite pictures :))

When we were young...

If i didn't rmb wrongly, this was taken in 2003 or 2004, when i was in secondary 2 or 3.

After which, he starting growing taller, shooting up. Up to the point where i'm the shortest in my family now, and my mum keep saying tt i'm short :(

This was taken at a studio, in 2006.
When i still had my braces on.
(ohh... i miss wearing braces, and changing colour bands every month! hahas)

2006 Dec Bali.2007 CNY2008 CNY2007 Dec Cousin's Wedding2008 Dec Grandpa's birthday dinner.2008 Dec Marina Barrage.
LOVES!!!

The Power of Love

THE POWER OF LOVE

Lord I come to You

Let my heart be changed, renewed

Flowing from the grace

That I found in you.

And Lord I've come to know

The weaknesses I see, in me

Will be stripped away

By the power of Your love.

Hold me close

Let Your love surround me

Bring me near

Draw me to your side.

And as I'll wait

I rise up like the eagle

And I will soar with You

Your Spirit leads me on

In the power of Your love.

Lord unveil my eyes

Let me see You face to face

The knowledge of Your love

As You live in me.

Lord renew my mind

As Your will unfolds my eyes

In living everyday

By the power of Your love.

Yet Another Disappointment

My mood for the whole day was damn crappy.
Bitter ending?
I suppose so.
U blamed tt i was the one who caused it?
So be it.
U said tt i've changed?
So be it.
Prob u were right.
Now, I couldn't care more or less anymore.

Initially after the first spam, i told myself,
"Probably, partially was my fault, so just endure.
Just read the msges and forget about it.
No matter how harsh and insulting it is, just forget it."

But unexpectedly, today in the morning, i had another long msg again.
This time round, i acted differently.
I wasn't able to convince myself to do those listed above anymore.
Because everyone has their own limit.
I have mine too.
And don't ever test mine.

Most of the time, I'm good at hiding my emotions.

Honestly speaking, it didn't came across my mind tt u will be like this. Never.
BUT i was wrong.
PS. to get everything clear, this r/s did nt even started at all.

Girlfriends!

Meet up with girlfriends to celebrate L's birthday.
But since YW, K and Me reached first, we camwhored in the ladies before shopping for L's present.

We got her a Bvlgari perfume that she wanted.
Then we went shopping while waiting for the other 3 more girls to arrive.
So after SP and C arrived, we went to ParkMall, since L requested to dine in at the Sakae Sushi over there.
Then as usual, while waiting for L to arrive, SP, K and Me went to the washroom again.
We ps YW wif C.
Haha.
Anw, during the whole time at Sakae, we reminised about our old school time days.
Our crushes.
The times where we got scolded by the teachers.
Going to school early to play carpark catching, block catching and bomb bags.
Classes that we were in.
Our houses for sports day.
...
...
And we even listed out our primary 5 and 6 class list!
Haha.
Pro right :D

We dined in for a few hours, then we headed outside to take pictures.
The wind was blowing like no one's business tt day.
Haha.
Thus our messy messy hairs.And i have to save up real badly for each of our 21st birthday gifts next year.
Cuz we have alr planned our budget for nxt yr alr.
Haha.

YW! I realise tt i didn't take pic with u tt day.
See, who ask u to be busy talking on the phone wif yr bf, then neglect me.
Haha.

We will meet up every year during everyone's birthdays.
We will meet up every year during christmas.
Loves!

Still there

I thought i have deleted your number.
But yr name was still shown on my caller ID when u called tt day.
Still there.
I know.
Maybe a lil left.
(I'm nt referring to ___, don't get mistaken. It's ___. )

Why again?
Tell me why?
ARGH.

Chinese New Year Goodies

After lesson, headed to my aunt's hse for our annual baking of Chinese New Year goodies!
:))
I had a first time hands-on on mixing the dough flour sugar etc, for the brownies.
And it was so sticky!
Haha.
But it was quite fun.
The sense of satisfaction felt when i used my bare hands and mixed everything so nicely.
:D
The kids helped the adults to do whatever they're asked to do.
Like mixing the dough, applying eggyolk on the pineapple tarts, applying butter on the trays, sieve-ing of the flour, etc.
We enjoyed helping out the adults doing these lil lil things.
Haha.
We did pineapple tarts, cookies and brownies.

Anw, shall let the pictures do the talking now!

How To Fall Out Of Love?

Saw this from K's blog.
And i think this is so meaningful.
Although it's abit lengthy, but still read on.
True or not true, it's for you to decide.
(:

How To Fall Out Of Love?

Step 1:Make a list of all the reasons it wasn't meant to be. The number one reason should be that you are worth someone who is in love with only you. you deserve better than to be someones back-up between flings. Other reasons may include incompatibility, especially when you imagine yourself spending the rest of your life with this person and remember the ways in which you clash on a regular basis. Human memory can be selective, and you may find yourself dwelling on that first kiss in the park, or that time when you laughed till you almost cried...but also remember the times when you felt neglected, unappreciated, betrayed, or even deeply hurt.

- See their faults. Nobody is perfect. The longer you hold on to the idea that this person is perfect, the harder it'll be to get on with your life. It's completely possible that you're idealizing someone just so that you can have a fantasy to hold on to. You should accept that this person is not perfect, and definitely not perfect for you -- because the perfect person for you would think as highly of you as you do of them.

- Think of what you want from a significant other that you didn't get from this person. Was he or she arrogant? selfish? insincere? Write down the opposites of those traits (humble, giving, and honest.) Not only will you see what this person didn't have, but you'll learn from this experience and look forward to finding someone who better suits you.

- Ask yourself if it was really true love you were feeling for this person. If you recognize that it was infatuation or lust rather than love, then you will have an easier time letting go.


Step 2:Remove as many traces of their presence in your life as you can. This is very, very difficult but also very important. Ask friends and family to help you sort through things and put anything that reminds you of him or her in a box. If you want to give these things back to the person, mail them--don't give it to them in person and torture yourself. An alternative is to bury the box (presuming it won't contaminate the water supply), burn it (with caution), or throw it (forcefully) into the dumpster. The physical act of destroying reminders of them may help your emotional side catch up.


Step 3:Distance yourself. You won't want to, but staying close to someone you want but can't have just isn't healthy. Don't tell the person or anyone close to them what you are doing, as they might try to convince you otherwise. Just try to get away for a while. Don't call them, don't go places where you know they frequent, and make yourself scarce. If you must have some contact (such as work) respond to messages slowly after a few days. Only call back when you have a good excuse to get off the phone after a few minutes. Take the time to reflect on your situation and learn more about yourself.

- The object of your affection might notice you are distancing yourself from them. They may try to get you to see them more. Say you have been really busy with all of these new activities. Tell them you have other things to do, too. You must have a life separate from theirs. Don't answer their calls and don't call them or text message them. You will be tempted to, but don't. It is far too easy to get entangled again and think of all the good work you have done to distance yourself.

- Don't assume after distancing yourself for awhile that you are over it. Be careful to make sure you are fully over this person before you see the person again.

- If this person was an unhealthy influence in your life (controlling, manipulative, abusive, etc.), cut them out completely. There's no obligation to stay on good terms with someone who made your life miserable, even if they didn't mean to. They may try to make you feel sorry for them in order to keep you wrapped around their finger. Cut off all ties and move on.



Step 4:Do all the things you've ever wanted to do, that you wouldn't have done if you were still with this person. Did you always want to take a tango class, but didn't because he or she "doesn't dance" and you didn't want to go without them? Did you want to go to that car, fashion, or antique lamp show with your friends, but felt reluctant to spend your day off with someone other than your love? Did you want to travel to an exotic country, but your partner didn't want to go because it's too hot/dirty/boring? Maybe--probably--there are ways in which the relationship held you back. Now is the perfect time to focus on those missed opportunities. Do whatever you can to feel better about yourself. Exercise, eat well, take a class, meet people, go to parties, have fun. Life is too short to spend it pining for someone who doesn't see you for the great person you are. There are those out there who will.



Step 5:Mingle. While you are distancing yourself from said object of affection, try to meet new people who share similar interests. If you choose to date, avoid the temptation to settle for whomever asks you out, just to distract you from your old flame, or you might end up making someone fall in love with you whom you don't love back!



Step 6:Understand that the feelings may never fade completely. You felt close to this person at one point in your life, and while you can eventually realize emotionally that you've grown apart, you will probably always have a soft spot for him or her. At some point, it may be possible to remain friends, but mind the boundaries and don't let your heart fall back into it.


All these are just SO HARD.
It's easier to be said than done.
:((

One step at a time

Examinations fees paid at RELC today!
Yup.
After lesson, met Sebas and his friend Amos in school.
Cuz Sebas offered to drive us down to RELC as he needed to make payment as well.

By the time we reached there, the room was alr half filled.
So we quickly joined the queue to get our no, then we headed to a waiting area, before queueing up again for payment.
I paid by cheque, which was faster than paying by nets.

After everyone had made their payment, we went to the lift area, and saw that the queue was super long.
It went till the lift, and continued at the staircase.
Luckily we came earlier, if nt we will need to waste our time queuing up.
Heh.

We went for lunch, then Sebas sent us home.
Thanks for the ride!

Hopefully the examination fees will be able to spur me to study even harder.
Haha.


Random...

This Marks & Spencer chocolate is one of my fav :)
The sweets, chocolates and chips there are <3

Korean Restaurant at Square 2. The food there is tasty! It's worth going there for a meal. Plus they'll stay by your table and cook the food for you.

Check out Great World City's ladies washroom!
It's interesting to have such a well-designed washroom.
Hmm, all the shopping malls should have this kind of wallpapers being put up, with different themes in different levels.
And i think if tt's the case, most girls will take even longer before getting out butts out of the toilet!
Hahaa.
We only patronised two of the toilets there.

Two dresses caught my eye tt day at Dorothy Perkins.
I wanted to buy the white one for CNY, BUT THEN, it's way too short for me.
Or rather, both are too short.
:((
That's all for today, I'm off to study and practice my piano songs for the teens worshipping service on Sunday!

Bvlgari charm bracelet is <3

Move it!

"I'd like to move it move it, you'd like to, MOVE IT!"
Haha.
Yup it's time to move on.
Thanks to all for the concern!
I'm alright (:

Got to stick to 2 of my resolutions.
Cos' prelims are in Feb, and i haven start revising yet.
Gosh!
Time flies.
Time to pull up my socks.

Examination timetable are out alr, but the dates will only be confirm in Apr.
7th May Principles of Accounting
8th May Statistics 1
12th May Mathematics 1
14th May Principles of Banking and Finance
15th May Introduction to Economics

So after CNY, date me out for studying only okie!

New Year Eve's Pictures.
With 19th ODAC.
Dinner at Crepes.

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Okie, i'm off to shopping now! :))