"We've got smth to talk to you"

My parents took leave ytd since it was chu san.

While i was doing my revision in the room...
Parents : Can you come out? We want to talk to you.
Me: What thing? Can you all hold on for a moment?
Mum: Just come out now.
Me: Okayy.

Out in the living room...
Things were brought across to me.
I was stunned by their suggestion.
Never did it come across my mind that they'll suggest something like that.
Me: Huh... But i've promised them tt i'll go with them this year.
Mum: It's not worth paying the sum of money where you're going for 3 wks only. We would rather, you go for two years.
Parents: You can choose anywhere you want. But provided that you do well enough for this year. You will do the research.
Me: HUH...
Parents: If you do not want, we can save up the money and buy....
Me: Even if i can, i do not want to go alone.
Mum: You have to learn to be independent. You can't always rely on others.
Me: (reluctantly) I'll think about it...

Haiz.
Mum asked me during dinner time again.
And i told her i want to try for the Summer School first, experience overseas life, before making a decision.
But she doesn't seems to be keen with that suggestion.

I know my results won't be up to their expectation.
So i do not want to take the risk.
And i so do not want to go alone.
I'm not tt independent yet.
Not yet.
I'm still under 21.

These are the things that happen when my results aren't fantastic at all...
WHATEVER.